I’m tired.

Tired of trying.
Trying to find new hobbies.
Trying to learn new things.
Trying to distract myself.

Tired of pretending.
Pretending I’m okay.
Pretending everything is fine.
Pretending it’s alright.

Tired of fighting.
Fighting the loneliness.
Fighting the depression.
Fighting the lies in my head.

Tired of protecting.
Protecting my family.
Protecting my friends.
Protecting myself.

Tired of maintaining.
Maintaining my body.
Maintaining my house.
Maintaining my mental health.

Tired of pushing through a day.
Pushing through a day at work.
Pushing through a day at home.
Pushing through a day alone.

I’m tired.

So why can’t I sleep?